everything seems like a beautiful dream.

hello my dear pretties.

i don't know how to break the news to you all. but i decided to say it here. see when you all find out. im darn sad, really really sad. but i don't wanna say to you all cos i know sure cry. lol.
ok. because of some stupid reasons , jh said he wanna separate with me for a period of time which i felt that its like " WTH ? " after 1 year plus with him. like abit diao=.=lll la. he don't wanna let me work at isetan. thn i of course also dun wanna let him work what . fair enough right ? his uncle ask him work at his shop , 10 am to 10 pm . for 2 weeks. he said he wanna earn money thn let me spend , also said that he want me stay at home . although its like good life la, budden dunno what happen like nxt day he said he want to separate laa. he say like a test for the both of us . but i feel like he dunno got other girls or what ah. somemore his dad called me sia. like his o levels, why he nvr study and stuffs like that. wth la. i also nvr meet him , whats wrong with him sia ? felt like smashing his head and flush into the toilet bowl la. im like feeling damn down now. but i also dun wanna tell ffam la .. cos i dun want like they lecture me ,cos that time they alr asked me not to patch with him. no good ending. i dun want them saying i stupid thn patch with him , ownself asked for it. i also rmb charmaine say " nxt time break with him agn dun come cry in front of me, i wun comfort you. " so i decided not to tell you all face to face or on the phone. i really don't know what the hell is he thinking. but i just simply love him tht much after going through those obstacles with him. somemore i dunno how to break the news to my mum la? but when the time ripe thn see how la. i don't wanna think abt it but i dunno how la. its like its a habit to meet him every friday? , sms him every single day. i guess i got to adapt to the new lifestyle . everything is back to square one. i reaally hope he knows what is he doing. he only says he want to separate.separate.separate ! fck sia. wth ............. somemore i dunno why he can act like nth happened, still go bowling with his family , and stuffs.. am i really so not impt to him ? alright. i guess i shall stop here. i really dun wanna say anymore.


babes.
dont worry.
i'll try to stay happy.